Struggling to keep or get a job...

To date I have tried to fight the system of negligence within the employment system... against the controversy surrounding the invisibility of such a debilitating illness such as C.F.S./M.E. but to no avail...

My employers seemingly...

Within the battle to maintain my employment... I tried every avenue of help... to the extent that I was placed in an "Access to Work" program... which consisted of taxi's which took me to and from work... I had made an appointment with the "Disability Employment Advisor" and after speaking to him... he tried several times to contact my employers... to offer his assistance... but they declined him....

I sought help from the various other organizations... such as...

Although I received sufficient advise from all of the above parties... unfortunately after a 5 year battle.. to maintain my employment.... I have lost... this battle within itself... created such an increased level of stress.. that I was eventually backed into a corner... I could not fight anymore....

To be honest... the whole ordeal... made me ill... I was struggling... I knew that my employers had discussed the option of being pensioned of... and I was told that they were going to put it into action... and even if I were granted such a pension... then it was my decision whether I accepted it or not... a few weeks later.. I had found out that I had been awarded it... but I did not say at anytime.. that I would be accepting it... I was invited into a meeting... with my employers... a few weeks later.. only to find that I had walked into a dismissal procedure.... my employment had been ended and I had no say in the matter... the paperwork had been formerly drawn up... and I was expected to sign it...

Yes, I am angry... especially prior to the meeting I had sat for half an hour, trying to weigh up the pro's and con's of accepting the ill health pension... but seemingly the choice had been taken from me.... but this anger has turned into determination... and I will not blame the company that I worked for... but I will blame the immediate managers that put me through this charade... obviously... they should not have been placed within such a level of importance.. within the company... as they have no inbuilt people skills period....

Employers to date... are urged to recognise the fact that disabled people... also have skills and experience... and not to see the mere factor of... creating more paperwork as in minor adjustments within the workplace... to be honest by the time I was dismissed... my folder was the largest in the filing cabinet.... lol...

For those that have just started work... or are already in work... and are facing difficulties.... job centre plus offer a program called "In-work-support" (if only I knew when I was struggling to maintain my job) which offers support for people with health conditions... and disabled people... so if you are in receipt of any of the below benefits...

Please do not hesitate in contacting your local Jobcentre Plus advisor... or visit http://www.jobcentreplus.gov.uk for more information... as they offer a combination of services and support such as...

If at the time... you contact jobcentre plus... and you are employed... In work Support is entirely confidential... and they will not approach your current employer without your permission...

If at the moment... you are currently unemployed... and in receipt of sickness benefit.... and seeking employment... Broker Scotland is also part Jobcentre Plus.... there directive is also to help those with Health Conditions... and Disabled People.. back into work... you will find them under the above link... as in new deal for disabled people... or telephone 0800 389 7036... for more information...

Their aim is to provide.....

As they claim.... on a leaflet that I picked up... "From benefits to work we'll take you there"

There are many... "Job Brokers" on the market... Job Brokers have been drawn together from the public, private and voluntary sectors although... each one differs on the rewards of finding a job.... and some offer more support than others.... I suppose it is an individual choice.. as to who you register with.... as we can only register with one....

Shaw Trust is a national charity that provides training and work opportunities for people who are disadvantaged in the labour market due to disability, ill health or other social circumstances... and are the largest UK provider of employment services for disabled people as in....

To date many of there services are tailored to the specific requirements of people with issues such as mental ill health, substance misuse problems or learning disability....

You can telephone them on 0800 085 1001 or visit http://www.shaw-trust.org.uk for more information....if you choose to telephone... they will ask you for your contact details.... and an advisor within your area will get back to you... and arrange to meet in a place of convenience.... such as your local jobcentre... or at home.. if you so desire....

Workable is another job broker.... but I will not highlight what there options are.. as to be honest... they are the first Job brokers that I contacted.... I popped into the local office... left my details.... and I am still waiting a month later to be contacted... and yes, I did revisit.... but to no avail... still the same story... the chap that deals with my area is on holiday... but on the day that I revisited... I was told that he would be returning to work the next day.... but guess what.... ~sigh~ I am still waiting....

Perhaps... you may have more luck than myself.... and please do not hold your breath waiting on a response... as I did and had to come back up for air... lol (sorry for being negative... but can you blame me??) you can e-mail them at enquiries@thewisegroup.co.uk or telephone them on 0141 303 0070 for more information... and whilst you are on the phone.... do me a wee favour and ask them why they did not get back to me.... after all is that not there job????

To be honest... I have had more than my fair share of negativity... and as of now... I refuse to suffer fools gladly.... why should I? The first 2 job brokers... I have met... and spoke to in great depth.... and personally speaking... I am going to register with Shaw Trust.... In my opinion they sound more promising.... to the extent that I called my occupational therapist.... who wasn't aware that they existed... I gave her there contact number... and she is going to telephone them and request information.... to help others like me and you... who are struggling...

Another good deed me thinks.... but seriously... I do try although I am faced with the controversy of negativity....

But never again... after learning the above details.. of supportive employment... will I ever enter the "Lions Den" of employment... on my own... ever again....

It has been six weeks since I gave up my fight... to maintain my past employment.... and as I speak... I am both physically & mentally scarred.... but my determination succeeded my downfall.... and yes.. perhaps I stumbled... momentarily... but I am now back on my own 2 feet...

Although my determination is about to receive an Oscar for it's performance.... what I am about to say.... must never reach the tabloids.... let me have my moment of glory.... No I am not fit to work... but I will continue to... whatever the cost... and NO employer will ever dictate otherwise.. it is my life... and if I choose to continue.... and fall flat on my face..... then that has been my choice... no-one else's.....

After all... me thinks that the government should give me some sort of compensation.... as due to the fact that I more than worked my ass off... lead me to the controversial world.... of C.F.S./M.E.

BUT YET... THE GOVERNMENT... CONSTANTLY DENY THE FACTOR THAT WE ARE ILL???

Sorry, I wasn't thinking straight there.... I forgot for a sec.. that what we once paid hence.. as in tax and and national insurance.... was not sufficient enough... to pay all the doctors/specialists.... to give us the prognosis of C.F.S./M.E. and discard us as depressives....

No worries... I and other C.F.S./M.E. suffers.. will settle the debt shortly... as now... we have gained the information to supportive employment... and regardless... of whether we are housebound, bedridden or end up in a wheelchair.... we will pay the debt back to the government.... regardless... to consummate their reign of negativity....

Why?????

Because personally speaking.... we are too tired to fight the negativity and injustment of the justification that they pronounce... due to the impact of misunderstanding....

Perhaps... one day we will succeed... and positivity and understanding of C.F.S./M.E. will prevail!!!